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Friday, April 13, 2012

YaY fOr NeW bEgInNiNgS

this week i got to go back to my favorite place to work as a nurse, the nicu.  those of you who think its scary have yet to see the strength that these little creatures display as they fight to live.  last sunday i was teaching a lesson in sunday school about our life in heaven, and we talked about how each of us had chosen to follow our Heavenly Father's plan and come to earth to receive our bodies and to be tested here.   and today i was reminded of how much these little people want to be here.  they come into the world against all odds and they fight to stay here, they fight to breath and to eat and to grow and make their way home with mom and dad.  they amaze me.  and i feel humbled that my Heavenly Father gave me the skills to participate in helping them do the best they can.  i've enjoyed a lot of the things i've done as a nurse but none as much as i love playing a role in the development of these special spirits.  happy friday to me!

a GoOd MaN

i have been feeling very blessed lately for the good man i married.  i guess it all started with a few interactions with men who don't really measure up and my disappointment in them.  and hearing women talk about their ex-husbands and boyfriends and being reminded of a not so great person i had in my life for a while and i realized again that my husband is wonderful. he is my best friend, he is the love of my life, i know that our goals are the same and that together we will reach them.  i love that he supports me and encourages me.  he has faith when mine is weak and he will one day in the future, hopefully not too far away, be an amazing father.  he respects not only me but all women and is a wonderful example of a righteous priesthood holder.  i don't mean to gush too much about him but i have felt so overwhelmed by how blessed i have been to have him in my life that i had to share.
i remember being a young teenage girl having a dream where i was with my future husband and i was with this tall, handsome man with dark brown hair.  and luckily for me that's exactly what i got. the few people who actually read this probably know how we met, but in case someone doesn't i think i'll share.

i had just broken up with the before mentioned not so great guy and i was uninterested in seriously dating anyone.  in fact i had given myself a break for weeks to just relax and not worry about boys and dating and all that stuff.  just a few weeks to put the loser behind me and get myself back in the game.  one of my good friends met me for lunch and of course wanted to hear all about the break up.  she followed that up with an email later telling me she had a guy she wanted me to talk to, (insert eye roll here) "for reals!"  is all i could think.  "i'm totally uninterested in boys right now"   but i knew i should at least humor her.  plus he lived in florida and how would that work anyways.  it would be a great distraction until i was ready to face the boys in my local singles scene.  i told her sure i would talk to him but he had to friend me on facebook because i was WAY to busy with work to have time.  he did and we started sending innocent emails everyday.  and then a week later it stopped.  oh well, that was fun, was all i could think.  time to move forward.  then to my surprise he messaged me on facebook a week later and we haven't stopped talking since.  emails and messaging turned to texting and then our first phone call that lasted 3 hours.  after several weeks of talking everyday we knew we had to meet.  and he got a plane ticket out to salt lake.  i was so nervous about meeting this new friend.  what if he didn't like me?  what if he thought i was cute in my pictures but in person not so much?  what if there was no spark?  what if the last 6 weeks were kind of a waste of time?  he promised that we would be friends even if we weren't really interested anymore in each other but i was so scared.  the day finally arrived and i found myself waiting by baggage claim for him to arrive.  and when i saw him it was the best feeling in the world.  he was everything he was on the phone and more.  and there was definitely a spark there.  it was amazing to finally have this person in my life.  to have him hold my hand and kiss me and hug me.  to get to just be together was amazing.  we spent a great weekend camping with friends, and visiting.  and then we said goodbye.  by the time our next visit could be arranged we were in love.  so i guess my friend knew what she was doing.  and i guess Heavenly Father has a plan for us that we could never imagine.  i never could have imagined how much i could love someone.  i never could have imagined how that love grows deeper every day.  i thought i loved him as much as anyone could the day we got married but now 2 years later i feel like i was barely scratching the surface of those feelings.  the longer he is in my life the more i realize what a good man he is.  compared to men of the world he is so sweet and so strong and so loving.  i could never ask for anyone better.  i meant to post on our anniversary on monday but i didn't get around to it.  so i'm finishing now and hoping the man i love so much can forgive me being late just one more time.